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It's been an uneventful week, while also possibly being the most hectic. Confused? I often feel that way myself most days. I've got lose ends to tie up for college, while also worrying about SATs and studying for my driver license. I've got midterms for school, and an art project I've decided I was too ambitious on but now I've got a week to finish making. This is way to much for even my plate. I've also got job issues (issue: i can't seem to find one) and may have to go back to my amusement park job from last year. Really don't want to, but money is money. I'll get it where i can, and I know I can get it there. I also want to lose weight before the summer hits. It's just very hard doing that. It's cold and I've got so much to do. I tried going on the treadmill the other day. I should honestly do that more often.

This is how my life is right now: hkmjngtofijh

Just one big key smash.

 
 
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06 January 2010 @ 10:17 pm
I think that music is different to everyone. What i find horrid, isn't what someone else finds horrid. It's all about opinion, personality and just what kind of person you are in general. So, to answer the question, could I be with someone who listened to music i detest? Yes. I could spend my life with them because that's just one factor of our love/friendship, it's not what I'll base our whole relationship on. I'd probably try to make them listen to the music I like and get them to see a different view on other music. Being a huge music fan, I would really just want someone else who feels passionate about it too. I think it would be far more worse for me if I had to live with someone who HATED music rather than someone who just had a different taste in genre than me.

Wow I realized I haven't updated in a LOOOOOOOONG time. Lot's has happened. Nothing too eventful, but let me recap. Senior year is amazing/kicking my ass. Right now i have classes with all my amazing friends. I have alright classes, except for my math class which I'm a bit worried about. Other than that, I've just got senioritis, really. I can't believe I have to start whole new classes soon, and I won't even have my friends with me since we don't have classes together. Suck!

College is...confusing, exciting, scary, all at the same time. I've sent applications, but I need to take SAT's this month and then the acceptance/rejection letters can come rolling in. I'm nervous, but at the same time I just need to keep thinking i WILL get accepted. I must. I really have no experience in Audio Engineering, which is what I want to go for. I really love music though, and ever since I realized being a rock star isn't gonna be that attainable, I decided this is also something I could do with my life that lets me be close to it. If I decided it's too techy and not for me, I'm thinking maybe cosmetology. I love makeup and I think it could be something I'd be really into. But hopefully I enjoy my first choice, because I could see myself doing it and loving it <3

Love life? Na-da. I've decided that if I don't have a date by prom, I don't think I'll be going. Most likely though, I'll go anyway because I have a best friend who will guilt me into going. It's not my fault I don't get out much and I live in the middle of nowhere. Guys don't exactly grow on the trees surrounding my house. If only.

No job yet. Pretty sure that I'll be going back to the amusement park job (*cringe*) if I can't find one, because they'll start hiring for the season really soon. No license either, but we're working on it. I've got to go to the doctors, which mom is gonna schedule. \o/ im very excited. I just want to go places. Im so....stuck here. I want to take joyful joyrides with my friends. I have a lovely TMNT lanyard my bff got me, and I want keys to put on it!! I've decided buying a car is just dumb at this point. all the colleges I applied to are out of state. I really won't need/won't have a place to put a car. Mom is willing to let me use hers, that's all I need.

2009 was...alright. Went to some amazing concerts, got a job, met some amazing new friends, grew closer to people, turned 18 and decided life will not get me down. I will live the way I want to, happy and carefree. (:

Let's hope 2010 is the year of acceptance letters, opportunities and hopefully, boyfriends! For me at least. That's all I want. ;)
 
 
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01 September 2009 @ 11:59 am
This month has started out glorious. The Supernatural Season 4 that had been pre-ordered for me is being shipped out today. Which means it will probably come this week. Before school starts up again, I hope. I'd like to watch it all the way through, no interruptions. And school is a big interruption. One that sadly I have to go 180 through.

This Thursday, i hope, I'll be going shopping at the mall and then a nice store my dad knows with cheap prices. I'm going to the mall for myself with my own money, but my mother needs to get my sister some clothes as well so we're hitting up that store, too. I'm excited about school only to see how my classes will go. But I'm not excited for homework, or essays, or high school bullshit. I'm hoping to do the powder puff football game this year. These skinny popular bitches always do it, and I'd like to have some fun too. So my best friend and I are going to sign up. Hopefully we can get there before everyone and their mother has their name on the list. As a senior it would be nice to end this year with a bit of a fuck you to those people I hate, and invading something "they do" would be it. I'm also thinking about taking up a sport, just because I know once I'm out of High School I'll probably never do a sport where we have practices and teams and away games, ever again.

This is my goodbye year. The "I'll never be here again, make this year worthwhile" year. And while I'm making this year worthwhile, I also took hard classes. Fuck me, right? Yeah. What was I thinking. Atop of THAT I have to go to my counsler and talk to her about the expensive college I want to go to and how I can make that work when I'm poorer than the woman who lives in a shoe. (although I have a nicer house than that poor woman did xD) It's all just confusing and the year hasn't started yet and I'm tired.

LOL. I just saw the time and panicked alittle bit. I thought I was late for work. Forgot I don't have to be in until 2. wow that was a headrush.

Just wanted to update about the supernatural thing, but it went a little more than that. heh.
 
 
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How do you think technology will impact your future?

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I think that's it's already impacted my future. Honestly, there's really no turning back from how far technology has gone. I don't see it ever stopping unless something happens and somehow the internet crashes and burns and it just never gets back up again. I've been a computer junkie since I was a preteen. It started with Neopets and moved on. And now, in my future, it's just going to impact it even more. And not just the internet. Technology in general, really.

My career I'm hoping to go into deals heavily with technology, and I'm going to need it in order to do the job. As a, hopefully, record producer you use sound mixers, sound equipment, computers, instruments, and other technical things. So basically technology is my future, if you think about it.

Technology, in my opinion, is getting better and getting worse. We're so involved in trying to make everyone happy with LESS shit to deal with that technology is becoming so fucking indepth that I'm afraid where people are willing to go. I mean, rollar coasters are getting better and better but they're really walking a thin line. How far can you push before you push too far? Cars are better and worse than they've ever been. It's just something to think about. We rely so much on this technology that I don't think people understand that one day, it's going to let us down. I don't think technology has an endless ending. We are going to have a deadend someday. If it doesn't all blow up in our faces before then.

But, switching around topics, I am getting my hair done today! In about an hour, actually. I'm getting it completely changed. Cut and dyed. I've decided I want to go for a Allison Iraheta type look, and go for red-ish maroon-ish and a cut similar (but shorter) than hers. I didn't even watch American Idol but i saw her picture and went "must have her hair!" or at least something close to it. So I'm super excited and cant wait for this gross brown hair with no style at all to go away. My hair has seen too many self-cuts and self-dying times. It needs a professionals help.

(: Hopefully I don't end up hating how my hair will look.

 
 
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Imagine you manage a coven of baseball-playing vampires. The Cullen family is really strong this year and you want to bring in a ringer. Which currently active MLB baseball player do you sire?

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I am so freaking tried of this Twilight shit. I read the first book, loved it. Read half of the second, and deemed Bella a whiny bitch. Then, every freaking preteen (and sadly, many teenage girls) under the sun suddenly realized the opposite sex that is Edward Cullen and fangirled it so hard, I can't even watch the fourth Harry Potter without cringing. What I want to know is, where were all you little stalker-teens when Rob was in THAT film? Hmm? He was just as good looking with the bonus of actual good acting! In the goblet of fire he actual had promise of being an actor, twilight made me cringe with his bad bad acting. Also, I would like to note that you DON'T want to fall in love with someone like "edward cullen", want to know why? Because vampires don't glitter, they don't sparkle, they don't find your scent to smell like a flower. They are fucking badass bitches who will drink you dry so fast you won't know what happen. The first twilight may have been alright, but she has stretched out what "vampire" means so far that it's a bit laughable anymore. Watch a few Supernatural episodes (FOR THE PLOT, god, not because the two lead roles happen to be hot men) and find out what vampires really are like. You won't be wishing to be boned by one of those nasty things once you're done watching it. Seriously, every time I see a twilight shirt it makes me want to punch the person wearing it. Just saying.

On a different note, I'm giving blood thursday. Yes, my twisted mind finds it funny that vampires and me giving blood is going in the same post, but I digress. The blood bank called me up, said they needed my type blood, and what do you know, I happen to have a pint to give. I did it at my school last year, first time, and it wasn't so bad. Honestly, I felt so good that i'd given something to someone who might one day need it to survive (yeah yeah I know, stroke the ego) that I had no problem calling them back and making an appointment to go. So, this Thursday I don't work, and will be going to give thy blood away.

also i smoked pot for the first time and it wasn't all that amazing. But i've heard some people don't get high the first time. That's alright man, I am totally willing to try again. ;D I'm a baddd girl.

Seeing people at work walking by with piercing makes me miss my lip ring. I AM getting it re-done this year. after october, cause that's when I'm done with work. I'm so excited. I miss it so badly. And i'm getting it smaller this time, the first time it was HUGE. but it was my first piercing so I loved it even if it was huge and ALSO chipped my tooth. Yes. my dog jumped on me and it made me snapped my mouth shut and BAM. chipped tooth. Fucker. 

 
 
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So, I woke up this morning from a non-satisfying restless sleep and decided I wasn't going to work today. I summoned up my best pitiful sick voice and called my work up. Now I've got the whole day to bum around doing nothing, which I do in my free time all the time. Possibly I'll call my friend up soon and ask if she'd like to hang out. But right now I'm watching Disturbia and surfing the web; all the while still dressed in my PJs.

I have been in the process of cleaning up my room. It was a honest to god bomb site just a couple days ago and now it's down to looking like a small tornado went through it. I call it improvement. I've already done cleaning of the room Pt. 1, Pt. 2 and Pt. 3. I think a couple more parts and I may actually have my room back from the clutter strewn about. Also, I have a "yard sale" box, any shit that can't be throw away that I don't want goes in that box. My wardrobe is getting a major cleansweep as well. Since I've gotten my job I've already gone shopping once and it's not going to be the last time, so I'm cleaning out the shit I never wear and putting in a bag to either give to someone else or sell at the yard sale. I've got one half of my room semi-clean, the other still in chaos and I've still got to rearrange the posters on my wall. My room isn't even that big! this shouldn't be such a freaking workout.

I feel as if my whole summer has just been work and lazing around. I didn't really do anything major, but I never do anything major during my summers. That's pretty depressing isnt it? And because all my friends work or live just a tad bit too far away from me, I never get to see most of them. Which sucks as much as anything because now I've got about a month left of summer and nothing (except a couple hundred dollars, I admit) to show for it. I want to go on a small vacation (a day or two) with some of my friends. Is that really too much to ask? it is summer for godsakes.

But, as much as I don't want summer to end, I kinda want it too because I'm planning on getting my hair redone. Like complete haircut/color make over. My hair is dark brown, layered weirdly from previous times I've cut it myself (never a good choice, i know) and just...not looking good at all. I spent a bit of time searching the web for hairstyles and at one point I had thought I'd had one. I was originally going to go with this but I wasn't all the way into it. I liked it on her, but for me I just wasn't feeling it. So, after looking around some more I stumbled on a picture of a girl who's hair I just need to have. The hairstyle, the color. It's exactly the change I want. Now, I don't watch american idol, so  I had no idea who this was until recently, but I've decided allison's hair is beautiful and I need it. :D badly. So I'm gonna go two some weeks before school and get a professional do it for me. Because fuck if I could ever make my hair look even a LITTLE close to that.

Man, I forgot how much this Disturbia movie makes me paranoid of my neighbors secretly being serial killers. Yikes. It's not like they're all friendly with me, either. So that just makes it ten times worse. Who knows what they have in their basements? My friend and I had a discussion while watching the newest My Bloody Valentine about if we could possibly make it out alive from something like that. I might be a screamer, I think it would be highly likely they I'd scream my head off, but m y friend says screaming okay as long as your not an idoit and you don't stand their frozen in fear. I can perfectly run and scream, thank you. I'm pretty sure that if something like that was to ever happen to me, something like Disturbia, I would be able to think of ways to get out or stay safe. I wouldn't be the first to be killed, hopefully. We also were talking about how if one of our friends is with us being those stereotypical screamers that get killed frist, we are so ditching them. They only slow you down and get you all killed in the end. But hopefully i'm never in a situation like that.

Have you noticed that in most scary movie, or horror movies, cops always get killed no matter what? I think that's a sign.

I think after this movie I might just put in some more supernatural. It's all I've been watching since I got the three seasons. The fourth my mom preordered for me, so it should be coming around the first of september, so that gives me eight days to watch it before school starts. Ugh, school. Don't even want to think about that right now.

wow, long post is long.

I'm gonna end this before it becomes a novel.
 
 
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19 July 2009 @ 03:05 am
I've come to the realization that this summer is not going how I planned. Not that I really planned my summer, but I didn't expect it to be this boring. Mostly, I just work. Mostly, I come home from work and stay up late and chillax. Mostly, I have a couple days off and they're spent home relaxing in my not-working glory.

I hardly see my friends. I hardly do anything.

It sucks, to be honest. The paycheck I get every two weeks is very nice. It helps me buy things, of course I love it. But this summer is kinda my last summer before things hit the fucking fan and get busy. I'm possible going to college soon (maybe taking a "gap" year, we'll see how it goes) and school will start and even next summer who knows. More work, possibly, as i said, college. It's all moving too fast (or maybe not fast enough?) for me. I want to be a kid and hang with my friends and fucking be a little teenager shit that hangs at the mall and does stupid things.

I just don't want to be an adult yet. I don't want to ever be one. I wanna be like Peter pan and never fucking grow up. This adulthood shit sounds too fucking hard. We kids have it easy. Pimples and homework? I'll take that for the rest of my life if it means never growing up, thanks.

I do have to say I am loving the money from my job though. Yes, it's another step in that icky thing called "adulthood" but i am fucking loving this thing called a "paycheck". My job isnt hard, and I get about a hundred some dollars for about 8 days of work. It's not much, but then again, I don't have bills to pay, either. I do pay for my phone's internet, and everything else is play money, bb. I just had a shopping spree at the mall last weekend. Fucking spent 200 dollars. my wallet was lighter, but i have realized I love spending money. I think, no matter what kind of girl you are, we just love spending money. who doesn't? But i also know how to save money, so it goes both ways.

No progress yet in the Co-Worker Love Fest '09. I'm liking him more and more (ugh, i'm trying to not go all lovey dovey and gross) and we're becoming better friends, i think. But i still don't see him alot, and I try to do this thing called flirting, but i dont have enough practice so mostly it's me just laughing and trying to be witty like when i called him 'charming' WHO SAYS THAT ANYMORE EXCEPT OLD LADIES TO MEN WHO HELP THEM WITH THEIR GROCERIES?! I'm a failure.

Random fact about me: I just had a sandwich and it was delicious.

I'm NOT debating eating another, although i want to, because I'm trying to cut down what i eat and lose some pounds. I really need to exercise. and man is this journal entry random. Although no one reads this anyway, so what does it even matter?

Tomorrow is another blissful not-working day, and then Monday it's back into the workforce. I got a text from my friend asking if i wanted to go to the movies monday, but i forgot to text back and now it's too late. Dammit. I'll text her tomorrow and tell her i can't go. fuck, work is a downer.

life doesn't suck, but it's getting close.
 
 
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school ended. summer started. worked all this week. more work all summer.

too tired to really write a journal, just kinda felt like updating.

sleeeeep.
 
 
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08 June 2009 @ 08:36 am
Becauseeee [info]bandombigbang and [info]spn_j2_bigbang started posting stories today!

What a way to kick off the summer, well. almost-summer, for me at least. (3 more days). I'm going to have a ton of stories to read between both of the communities. I've already read two.


Bring it on!

But, in non-bigbang news, I started my physics final today. Didn't get very far and i'm almost positive I'm screwed. I swear to god the questions werent that hard in class, what the fuck. But I'm not too worried because my grade is okay in that class, so even if i bomb it, I should at least pass. But, I've got one more day to do make-ups in gym for missing over the three-free days we get. I doubt i'm going to go to it. I didn't go to the others. But its 2.5 points off our grade. Which could put me at a D or a C. a C im alright with, a D not so much. But fuck it, I don't care. It's the LAST DAYS OF SCHOOL. Do they except me to give a fuck? honestly? I'm suprised I'm attending at all. I want to skip so bad, and i would if i didnt have finals.

thrusday can't come faster.

wtf some of my mood things arent working, D< fucking photobucket.

 
 
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03 June 2009 @ 10:06 pm

Describe your dream house (even if it's not a house).


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I've never really thought about this much. I'm not like most girls. I don't spend time thinking about a perfect wedding, or a perfect husband, or a perfect house. I really only think about what I want to do with my life that will make me the happiest. So far I've found that if i surround myself with music, that might just do the trick. So, putting aside the fact that i'd be happy living in a shithole as long as i had my music, I'd say my dream house would go something like this:

I've lived in small houses all my life. I had a narrow trailer (like trailer park trailer) till i was in middle school, then my parents got rid of that house for a double wide. I love my home, I do. But that doesn't mean I don't wish it was bigger. So one of the things my dream home will have is room. Space. Two stories, possibly an attic, but definitely a basement. I can't tell you what i want the inside of my house to look like because most likely my feelings for it will change, but i'd have to say... a mix between casual and fucking crazy. Colors and weird art and music related things. Nice furniture, awesome TVs and game systems consoles all around.

My kitchen will be medium sized, since i occasionally get into cooking modes and II love it when there's room in the kitchen. I'll have a nice sized living room without any windows because i have to live with a fucking glare on my tv in my living room right now and fuck that shit. Lamps will do the trick in my LR in my dream house. My room will be the fucking best, have a huge bathroom with an awesome glass walk in type-ish shower. It'll have a round window because i like round windows and this is my dream house.

I'll have a kinda big back yard with a awesome pool shaped either in the shape of a musical note, guitar or octagon. I'll have a nice patio type thing where i will hold nice parties, and i'll have a robotic maid to clean up after them.

I'll be just far out enough of the city that I'll have privacy and the insurance that I won't get killed in my sleep, but close enough that a 10 minute drive will get me back to the buy life of town.

I...think that's it for right now. Oh,  my dream house also comes with a dream dog. A bulldog named monster. and I will love him so.

 
 
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03 June 2009 @ 09:58 pm
of school and then it's SOMMER ZEIT. (...I think that's right. A whole german class and I still have no idea of the basics. ha.) Which means more work, more money and more time for frandz. I'm excited.

Also, MUSIKFEST. fuckkk yes. Panic and Owl City July 31st. I'm gonna try to go, bbs. I srsly flipped out when i heard it wasn't jut patd but ALSO the lovely owl city. It's like a sign that this is JESSICA'S CONCERT.

Too tried to really write a reply. Just my fueledbyramen order that got fucked up was all my fault it seems (fuck me for never looking at my spam email box) but it's been figured out and although i had to do a switch on one out of stocked item. But anyway, it should be here at the end of this week (hopefully.) 'cause the girl bumped me up to priority mail because i'd waited so long. (a month. -_-) it was sweet of her (:

I am so tired of this week, tbqh. I want it to be the weekend, even though I have to work saturday 12-8 (my least favorite hours.) but hey, whatever. the paycheck afterwards is very very nice. so i can't complan much.

night, sweet dreams and all that jazz.
 
 
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Littering, long showers, not recycling... What's your biggest pet peeve about the way some people (mis)treat our planet?

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I can't say I haven't littered, and I also can't say I don't take long showers, 'cause I do and they're awesome. But I think my biggest pet peeve is the fact that most people just don't care. They litter constantly, thinking someone else will clean up their mess, or worse, that it doesn't matter. They cut trees down without realizing how important they are, they pollute and use nasty resources that hurt our planet.

Sometimes it can't be helped. Not everyone can 'go green', I get that. But it's good to be aware of what's happening to our planet, and to the best of your own ability try and do your best to stop the planet from slowly crumbling away to dust and nothingness because of our own ignorance. Just because you care about the earth doesn't mean you're a 'tree hugger', which many people seem to think go hand and hand. It's about respecting the world you live in, that provides for you. If you help it, it'll help you.

And to the people who just don't care, or understand that, you're dumb. The polar icecaps ARE melting because of air pollution and other toxins fucking up the ozone layer. I don't even understand how some people think that isn't the cause of that happening. There are tons of people who realize the earth isn't going to be around forever if we don't stop our polluting ways, but it isn't enough. You're only was strong as your weakest teammate, or however that saying goes. And if there are people our there unwilling to give a shit, it means that we're not giving 100 percent to the world we live in. Which, when you think about it, just makes us all assholes.


But on an entirely different note, skipping school friday was fabulous, but the weekend ending is not. I've got school tomorrow, with another fucked up schedule because of senior finals. I can't remember if I've got any finals tomorrow or not, and I haven't studied at all. I'm fucked. I'm pretty positive I don't have any, but my physics final could possibly be tomorrow. Which is the one I've got to worry about. Well, not worry. But it's not exactly my best subject, even if my grades are fine in that class. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to study much for my finals, which isn't suprising because me studying for anything is rare. But...I really should do it. I've got good grades, so that'll hold me up if I get any low grades on the finals, but I don't really want low grades on my record. Colleges looking at 'em and all that jazz.

Also I'm at the end of supernatural season 3. I've got about...four? yeah, I think four more epsisodes to go. I want to preorder season 4, because I'm a supernatural addict, It seems. I'm not surprised. When I really get into something, I get into it all the way. Obsession forming, you know. Hell, I wanted to be a charmed one so badly a few years back when Charmed was my show of choice. I even wrote down spells they said. It's just how I am, I guess. I get into something and gradually fall out of it when it's run its coarse. Which means supernatural could be my addictiion for at least a couple years, minimium. 

So, I've gotten school and my hobbies (kinda...) out of the way and typed out, let's try love life. I didn't get to talk to the boy I like at work, sadly. But I saw him, which was almost enough, even if I was a bit disappointed. He's not sexy or hot, really. To me, I think he's cute. But it's the type of cute that not every girl (or boy?) would agree on. I don't really know him, I've only talked to him a couple of times. But. I just feel like I could really like him, if I get to know him. There's just a feeling there, something about him I think i'd like. weird, I know. But isn't that how this 'crush' thing works?

hmm. it's been a while since I've had someone I liked. I'm still not over the last person I had (have) feelings for. It's nice to have someone new to focus on, and hopefully maybe...I could get them to focus the feeling back, maybe. (: We'll see.

I'm done sounding like a typical teenage girl, but I refuse to put hearts around our names on my notebook. I still have my dignity.
 
 
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Wow, I haven't updated in a while. Things have been happened since then. Firstly, went to my FOB concert with kelsi. Very fun. We were in line for 5 some hours, it was raining on and off for those five hours, and during the actual concert it poured for about a half hour. but the rain, during the concert, just made it all the better. It was a fantastic show. Kelsi and I got up front (would you expect less?) but after almost dying because of the pushing and shoving we decided it wasn't fun and we left for the back. Which was a great choice, by the way, we got to dance around and just focus on the music and not how to save our fucking lives. (cause we fell twice, both of us. almost couldn't get up. it just wasn't worth that effort to stay up there). and while leaving the front, I got Ryland's guitar pick. Awesome, y/y?

So after that concert of amazement and joy, the next day was my first day of work. Everything went swell, fine and dandy. I've been working saturdays all this May. So far I like my job. It's not my idea of a fun time to spend on my weekends, but  I don't hate it, my supervisors aren't mean, and i've made some friends. Also, the paycheck's are nice. Super nice. I bought stuff from fueledbyramen (that still hasn't arrived, dammit) and seasons 1-3 of Supernatural (which did arrive, and I'm already at the end of watching Season 2).

Now, June's coming up and schools almost over. Thank everything good and holy. I'm so fucking tired of that place. Only one more year and then college. Which, yeah, not looking forward to that so much but the freedom of being 18 and out of highschool is something I'm looking forward too. (the 'being an adult' thing, not so much.)

This summer is pretty much going to be spent working and hanging out with friends. Also, my friends get their licenses. FUCK YES.
 
 
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10 April 2009 @ 04:56 pm
Our school has decided to be merciful (or, obligated, whichever) and give us two days off school for spring break. Today and also Monday, which means a four day weekend for us, baby. I am going to use those days having a great Easter filled with food and carrot cake (mmm, i specifically asked for it) and not worrying about school work. Psh, like i ever worry about school work.

I do have a project in gym (yeah, who the fuck makes projects for gym.) coming up. I've got to research the history of volleyball and then teach everyone how to bump said volleyball. As if I haven't been forced to do this enough. Gym really isn't my favorite class; I dont know how it can be anyones. It's a class of physical exertion, and if that isn't bad enough I also don't have any friends in that class. Which makes it just awesome. They friggin made us run the mile yesterday, fucking a. As if making me spend 80 minutes friends-less and playing dumb sports isn't enough, they make me run fucking laps around the football feild just to show how much i suck. but im not bitter (much).

Got good news yesterday! My friends mom has decided to get her a ticket to fall out boy too, so we'll be going together! Now I can actually have a friend along and not be bored waiting in line for hours like last time, when I ended up calling and talking to marie the whole time until my phone died.

Gosh, fall out boy and cobra starship. my friend and I went to a cobra concert together before, and it was freaking amazing and so much fun. So i'm really looking forward to going with her this time. I just hope she doesn't have too much of a hard time, cause she's kinda short and...sometimes short people have hard times in the crowd. D: believe me, this girl...two concerts ago, i believe, had to hold on to me 'cause she kept getting killed by the crowd. Poor thing, she was literally squished into my boobs at times. but she wasn't leaving and I admire her strength for that.

I've decided to change my mood theme, i've had harry potter for forever and it's time for a change. That change will be Supernatural. I found this wonderful animation mood theme of spn and decided I'd use it. It's uploading right now, and I just can't wait to put it to use. (:

I'm watching Ouran High School Host Club again. It's such a fun anime, I just love the interaction between characters and the plot that keeps being added too as you go along. I don't know how many episodes I'll get done today, but I've got four days to watch it, that should be enough to get me pretty far.

D: i just wish someone was online so i could talk to them.




 
 
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03 April 2009 @ 11:34 pm
That's right, I've got a job. I'm not working at it yet, it's an amusement park so it's too cold right now for it to be open, but soon. May 2nd is when they start, but I'm not sure when my first day will be. I am a merch hostess. Sounds exciting, doesn't it. No? Yeah, i know. I'll be behind a cash register selling tye dye shirts with rides names on them to people and their kids. Stuff animals, stupid key chains; this is my life right now, I've accepted it. But what have i also accepted? Oh yeah, the fact that I'm going to have money. For once in my sorry life I am going to have well earned money. Not lunch money saved up, but real money I earned busting my ass. I feel all grown-upy.

Tomorrow I have my orientation training. It's 9am to 5pm, a real fucking nine to five work day. The hardest work I've ever done was cleaning out some woman's dirty ass fridge for like, 10 bucks. So to say im a bit nervous and also kinda like 'fuck this, wanna be lay' is an understatement. I haven't even gone to it yet and i have a headache, but I'm hoping it wont be that bad. Also possibility of seeing marie, since she has it that day too. Which is so fucking sweet by the way. We might be able to take break together, if they let us out at the same time. Then go down te time, then go down to the cafe and munch away our lunches together.

Then sunday I am most likely spending the day with Kelsi and maybe getting my nails done for free by her grandmother, which is awesome. Anything thats free is awesome, in my opinion. But damn, this weekend is busy. I also had a powerpoint for Physics I have to do, 'cause my partner for it might like, die if we get late points. When he said he'd give us till monday, she was like "are we going to lose points for this!?" and im like "um...he probably would have told me if we were going to, so no."

I can tell this week is going to be exhausting.

Moving on, though, I have recently (that meaning within like, the last two months) discovered a fantastic show called Supernatural. Best show ever. I was a huge fan of Chamred as a kid, and it still knocks the socks of that show. (even though charmed is kickass. At least the older seasons). I am already on Season 4, not that far behind on the shows they are currently airing. I caught up quite fast, I was just a downloading supernatural watching fiend. It is the best show ever, and thats not even my OPINION, its just fucking fact. Once you go spn, you never go back. It's like an addiction, only without the nasty sideaffects, cause Supernatural has no sideaffects. It's like hot guys that fight shit and theres angst and love and hate and just *smishes show*

guh, i need to stop talking right now about this 'cause it won't end if i keep it up.

my eyes are totally getting that heavy feeling and i still need to shower. its like, midnight. FUCK YOU PROCRASTINATION!

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Hm. This is a good question, mostly because I would miss a lot of things...but what would i miss the most? Probably, as cliche as this sounds, my freedom. In prison, you're contained. They (usually, unless you're a sneaky sonofva  and know your way around) know where you are at all times, most of the time know what you're doing, and you obviously just can't live like you do outside, inside prison. I'd miss just hanging at home going on the computer, chilling. I'd miss my music, god, my music alot. I'd miss my friends and family and just knowing that if i decide i want to go for a walk, go for a fucking walk without being confined by barbed wire.

I think that, my freedom, is what i'd miss most. But if i'm in prison, it means I've done something that deserved my freedom to be taken away from me. So it's my dumbass fault I'm missing it in the first place. I'd probably also miss salt & vinager chips and ben & jerry ice cream. Which I'm sure they don't have in prison...

woah boy. it's been a long time since i've written in my LJ. Not many major things have happened, I'm still coasting along in school; we've taken some PSSA's, I've gotten on the High Honor twice so far. Ya know, regular school shit. And honestly, i'm too tired from hanging out with Kelsi today to really type up something extraordinairly long & thoughtful. I just want to say one thing:

FALL OUT BOY CONCERT MAY 1ST BITCHES.

that is all. maybe i'll write some more tomorrow, if i don't forget and i'm not being lazy. (:

 
 
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08 January 2009 @ 10:36 pm
Got my PSAT's scores back. Critical Reading, good. Writing skills, very good. Math, suckage. No surprise there though, math is my weakness. My kryptonite.

I've been feeling slowly more and more overwhelmed as the months pass. When you're a 10th grader, you could care less about what college you're going to. You don't even really know what you want to do other than those dreams you still hold on to, that you cling to. And then all of a sudden you're in 11th grade. A Junior, and they're like "time to fucking grow up and realize the worlds harsh and you'll get nowhere if you don't do shit." And they try to make it sound better by saying "better to get it done now, then later" and "helping to prepare you for the future" but all they're really trying to say is you're not a kid anymore and you have to get ready for adulthood.

It's scary as fuck, honestly. Not in a big scary monster type of way but a 'shit, i have to like, pay bills and go to work and figure out how to FEED myself on my OWN.' its so, so freaking real. Like today, when they called me down to give us this little speech on our PSATs and give us sites to help us. I couldn't help but just sit there and think that i'll be 18 next year. I'll be getting acceptances to college. I'll be WORKING and DRIVING and doing ADULT THINGS.

God, I really understand why Peter Pan wanted to stay in neverland. I'm not even an adult yet and it sucks already. Too much pressure. So, now im like filling out scholarships to get money cuz my family totally doesnt have a money tree in our backyard and I'm pretty sure I have an actual JOB i want to do; to go to <i>college</i> for.

It's scary but at the same time I can't help but think about my life in a few years. I'm pretty sure in my day dreams I'm making it out a lot more cooler than it's gonna be...but, still. I'll be going to college to get a degree to do something that will make me a somebody. Instead of wasting away going to school learning about shit i don't care about and sitting on my ass at home wishing I could be somewhere else.

Just because reality is pretty much punching my in the face right now doesn't mean I'm gonna give up on my dreams. I'm still gonna be a fucking rock star, bitches. because its something i really want, and i think that's peoples problems anymore. They think everything is going to be handed to them on a silver platter. you have to work for you what you want and i am so so willing to work for it.
 
 
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02 November 2008 @ 01:04 am
I just got back from my concert. I haven't even been home for an hour, not even a half an hour. I'm tired as all hell, but god. I'm still on like that high from the concert, even though my eyes are like "*refuse to stay open*".

Some highlights of today:

-Talking to marie on cellphone for 2+ hours while waiting in line
-Tom from Plain White T's touching my hand
-Ryan ross SMILING AT ME (im pretty sure it was directed at me. i totally did a finger wave and he SMILED. and if it wasn't [THOUGH IT WAS], LET ME FUCKING DREAM, OKAY.)
-THE CAB
-Rock band live shenans
-Panic at the disco in GENERAL
-Zack the bodyguard (he's so fucking awesome)
-Panic singing the song "Shout"
- Brendon 'dancing'

There were more highlights, like oh um, THE WHOLE THING. but tomorrow I'll write up a whole motherfucking OUTLINE of my day, with pictures and/or videos. So look forward to that.

Out of all the concerts I've been too, this one was the best. Like, crowd wise it was perfect. I didn't get shoved ONCE. Like, srsly. It was perfect. It was pretty awesome. and my cab bbs and panic bbs were looking mighty fine. ;D
 
 
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01 November 2008 @ 01:37 am
Went trick or treating with friends today! I was a dead scene queen. My hair was a fucking rats nest. I actually got a lot of candy, even though we only were trick or treating for less than an hour. Then we went to the corn maze...and that was just a load of scary fun. My friends all slowly left me, they kept running up ahead, until it was only me and cait and she's like "you go that way and tell me if its a dead end." and im like "NO. THAT ALWAYS HAPPENS IN THE MOVIES. IM STAYING WITH YOU." Eventually we found the exit. :3 Then we went back to her house and had some funny convos and shenans and watched half of beetlejuice. Fun times.

I really should be in bed right now, my The Cab/Panic At The Disco concert is today!! Can't wait. We're leaving at 12, so i'll probably be getting up 2 hours before that to get ready.

D: imma die from exhaustion.
 
 
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22 October 2008 @ 10:57 pm

What's been going on in Jessica Land, you ask? Well, come along my children, I shall tell you.

Pretty much nothing for the most part. School, mostly. Mostly as in 99.999999% of everything I do. I go to school and come home. Then i do at home stuff like, oh yeah, go on the computer. So basically that's all i do. Go to school and go on the computer. As you can see, my life is very boring.

My classes have not been generous to me. At all. Several of my classes keep piling up projects and I've just been so fucking lazy; I seriously have like, lets see, 3-4 projects that are either already due or that i should be working on. and I basically have them either only halfway done, or not started at all. Goodbye good grades. I can't seem to care. I'm kinda just doing them at my own speed (ie. Whenever i feel like it), I should have at least ONE of them done by tomorrow. Hopefully. Let's dream big, shall we?

Probably the most exciting thing that is going to happen in my life soon, and I do mean soon :3, is well. Okay. Two things, i guess. One is soon, other is soonish. First event of awesome-none-boring-ness: Going to see Panic and The Cab in concert (along with Dashboard Confessional and Plain White T's). I KNOW. It falls on a Saturday, which was totally my fucking LUCK, because dad doesn't work that day. Which means he can take me to the concert. :3 The ticket was worth every drop of my parents well earned money, believe me. I've already seen panic and the cab in concert, but. God. Okay, it never hurts to see a band a second time. Or even a third. Not even a 53rd time. This concert is what is getting me through the days. I'm like "gotta get through this day. gotta get through this day. another day gone, another day closer to seeing my bbs." Oh ryanspencerjonbrendonalex1,2&3iancashjohnson♥ (I'm really really hoping, and this is a BIG hope right here, that maybe I can meet The Cab. I kinda wish i'd listened to them BEFORE i saw them the first time, but hey. I can't change the past, so i just have to live in the future. But, they're in a pretty big place this time, lots more people and fans. They're bigger and more known and just. I wanna meet 'em. Hope i can. do i think i will? Nah. But i won't rule it out.)

2nd thing of awesome-none-boring-ness-but-isn't-as-best-as-the-first-thing: My birthday. My 17th birthday, to be more specific. Can you believe it? I'm so OLD. I feel like I should be ordering those electric skooter things, and freaking Life Alert. I'm pretty excited/scared for 'adulthood' (that word always comes with like, a dramatic voice and echo-y ness in my head, when i hear/see/say it.). I'm not sure what i want to do when i'm older. I have like. a HUGE list of shit i want to do. It's so rediculous. I can't do all this shit. It's not possible. If you could see this list, you'd lawl. It's that random.

actually. Here. I'm gonna make you a tiny preview of what my List looks like:

1: Musician. (I.e: Rockstar)
2: Circus Preformer (Probably something with Trapeez? Yeah, I know. Laugh. Why? Because I'm the least most flexible person in the world and have no upper body strength at ALL.)
3: Sound Technician (Possibly goes with Rockstar. I mean, hey. Bob Bryar did it, so can i.)
4: Record Label Owner (Goes along with 1&3. So far, those don't clash too much with each other. Pete wentz owns a fucking bar, label, clothing line AND is a rock star. He also has a bb on the way. If HE can do it....well. maybe i can, but i dont know. Pete is one crazy mofo.)
5: Robin Hood (Yes yes. me in tights, hahhaha. But, i've always loved the concept of stealing from the rich [and i guess? giving to the poor? they have meals on wheels, they dont need anymore than that] this isn't really a job...is it? Just realized that.)
6: Photographer (Love taking pictures. I just don't know if i'd be able to LOVE doing this as a job. It's more like a really awesome hobby.)
7: That Police Person Who Takes Out Drug Dealers (this job is a recent interest. this guy came to our school to tell us about how drugs are bad and he was like "i get to spend the goverments money to pretend im some awesome drug dealer, so i can take out OTHER drug dealers' and i was kinda liek 'fuck...YES.' can you see me as like, this sexy drug dealer with like, a thousand cars and a shirt worth more than my mom and dad and sister and house COMBINED?! That's 3 humans lives and a HOUSE people. That's one hella expensive shirt. So yeah, that job? kinda awesome.)
8: Actor (I can make myself cry on command. 'nough said.)

...k. I've kinda forgotten some of the other jobs i've wanted. but believe me, there had been some fucking weird and crazy and FUNNY ones. I just, i hear about them and then get the biggest urge to DO them. and then i realize i can't be everything at once. Which is truly sad because I have so many things i wish to do.

I could have spent my time doing my projects instead of typing this up. But i didn't, and i'm probably going to bed after this. oh, how i spend my time SO wisely.

Slowly been writing more of my story(ies), and also fooling around with Photoshop ;D
Photoshop is awesome if you know what you're doing. For someone who doesn't? It's a mindfuck.

Guh. Two more days of school then weekend. \o/

PS: I had FRUIT PIZZA today in Food Prep. Yeah. Sounds disgusting doesn't it? I thought it would be some weird mutated baby of a pizza and a fruit salad. Like a cheesey fruity outcast. but it wasn't. It was like, the crust was a soft sugar cookie dough and then it had whip cream and you put on fruit. it was actually pretty good, even though all the sugar made my stomach hurt.
 

 
 
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